Why, oh Why?
Why am I so fickle? I hate it. It makes life harder.
Lets take the website, myspace.com as an example. I, like most people on it, got addicted for about two weeks. Am I now? No. My intial addiction was the cause of my great desire to get as many pseudo friends as possible. Then it was to see if people commented on my space. Now, now who cares.
Umm...Ok, so maybe I'm not as fickle as I thought I was because I can't think of any other examples at the moment, except for one that I'm not allowing myself to put on here for good reasons. But I'm pretty sure there are other things that I'm just not thinking of.
I think where I go wrong is my expectations, I think. I expect my feelings about something to last forever, or for whatever it is, lets say the myspace high, to last. I think its always going to be as fun as when I started. So as the excitement goes away, so does my interest. Why must I need excitement for everything to be enjoyable?
Oh, and here's another example I just thought of: This Blog. I intended to keep up with it everyday, and if not everyday, most days. You can see when I last posted to verify that I have not done what I had intended to.
I think another part of it is my laziness. Laziness to think and type for this. Laziness to care about whatever it is.
I need to find the source of this problem so I can fix it. I know it will make my life better, and I'll enjoy the decisions I make for a longer period of time.
Now will I actually take the time to think about what it is? Will I begin this thought process with great determination and then forget about it? Probably, but lets hope not.
posted by lockmat @ 4:04 PM
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1 Comments:
MySpace, ShmySpace...who cares if you're fickle on it - it shouldn't govern your life anyway! But the other stuff...like being disinterested in things after "the excitement goes away"...hate to break it to ya, but life does not always equal excitement (I know my life is the sole exception, but I'm sorry, I can't give everyone my secrets...). It also depends on your definition of excitement. If everyone defined excitement as experiencing the unexpected and the expected with the same enthusiasm and vibrance for life, then there would never be a boring moment anywhere. But who lives like that? It may be a dream or goal, but never completely a reality. The insatiability for something more exciting, something newer, something cooler, something better, etc., will always exist. The good news is if we direct our insatiable desires toward God, then He'll take care of the rest. He will always be bigger, better, more loving, more sacrificing, and more faithful than we will ever be able to fully comprehend. If you always are excited/feeling good/interested about God, then don't you think the other things in your life will reflect that? At any rate, "excitement" is just another emotion and if we view our life only through an emotional perspective, then it's just going to swish around with the waves of our ever-changing feelings. God gave us emotions for a reason...so we wouldn't be heartless and we could have the opportunity to care for Him in return. But he also gave us a brain and we're supposed to use it. Try it this way...our brains are like movies through which we see our lives played out on the screens. Our emotions are here to color the pictures we see and add an extra dimension to life. Like when we're happier, our emotions can paint brighter, and when we're disappointed by something, everything appears a few shades darker.
Well then. I have complete confidence that this will be the longest comment that your blog will ever receive. Not to knock on your ability to get people thinking for extended amounts of time, but more of the fact that once I start, I never really stop...hahaha. I didn't proofread this, so if some of the ideas are a bit sketchy, eh, oh well. As long as you can catch my line of thinking, then it may just all make sense. I think I know why I never post my own blogs...because it is just way more fun to use somebody else's thought as a springboard for my own. The reason people write is because they are responding or reacting to something anyway. That's just the way it is.
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