From Here to There

My eyes are heavy and my mind is probably in shutdown mode, but I'm still gonna write anyway.

I'm in a transition stage right now. I'm not in college anymore, but I don't feel like a completed adult right now either. Part of the reason is because I still haven't completely taken over all my adult responsibilites. As of today, I'm still living w/ my parents, I don't pay all my bills, and I still eat from my mothers hand.

But I'm getting closer and closer to fully transitioning to full adulthood. Lately, I've been getting my W-2's. I know what they're for, I'm not that dumb. But I don't know how to use them. So I asked my Dad the other night, "Is the government gonna send me some kind of deal, telling me how to do my taxes?" He said no. I wasn't totally surprised, but my thinking was, "What the heck, they reel you into the real world and don't even tell you now to live in it? I mean, taxes are pretty important to them. You'd think the least they could do is send you a little pamphlet that telling you to take your W-2's to some accountant, or whoever does them. Don't they want their money?

Ahhh, but no. I think I'll soak it all up. Learning how to live life is a fun experience. All you can pretty much do is laugh.

I've been watching Friend's re-runs a lot lately, and just last night I really connected with the lyrics to the opening song. "So no one told you life was gonna be this way. You're jobs a joke, you're broke. It's like you're always stuck in second gear." How funny, right? I just kind of wish I had those friends to be there with me to discover this thing we call life.

I think where I go wrong is that I just assumed that everyone older than me and already in the real world, know's how to live in this place, and know's how to do everything. At some point, there was a first time they took their car to the shop, payed their first bill, payed their takes, took out a loan, or planned for a funeral. There's so many things in this world that so many people have not done yet.

Sure you might haver observed somebody else go through it, but that's not always the same as actually going through it yourself.

Soon I'm gonna be moving into my own apartment, kind of. I'll be living with another intern. But it won't be a dorm room that'll have community bath's which custodians clean up after me, nor will it be my parents house. I'll have to buy the apt essentials, get my own groceries, and make every decision on my own.

Now, everyone begins this whole process at a different time. So I don't care if someone my own age is laughing at me b/c they've been doing it for the past four years. Big whoop. You're better than me. But I'm just gonna have fun w/ this.

Hopefully I'll become the responsible adult, and not just take on the responsibilities an adult takes on.

Alright, it's 10:00. Friends is on, haha. Peace

p.s. - it's good to be back