Wow, great advice!

I wish that whoever gave me that advice on my fickleness would have left their name so I could thank them. It was really good advice.

When I first started reading it I thought to myself that I've already heard the whole deal about how we have to think with our minds and we can't just play off our emotions. But then the advice of how we should just direct our desires towards God that He'll take care of the rest. I'm not completely sold on what the person meant by "the rest", but yes, I do believe that Christ is sufficient for all things. It's just that I have a hard time balancing how much I should use my mind and emotions at the same time.

I guess I would say I should use 100% of my mind, and just remember I can't totally rely on my emotions.

What I really think I need to do though is pray about whatever it is I get fickle about and let the Lord direct me in the way He wants me to go.

Why, oh Why?

Why am I so fickle? I hate it. It makes life harder.

Lets take the website, myspace.com as an example. I, like most people on it, got addicted for about two weeks. Am I now? No. My intial addiction was the cause of my great desire to get as many pseudo friends as possible. Then it was to see if people commented on my space. Now, now who cares.

Umm...Ok, so maybe I'm not as fickle as I thought I was because I can't think of any other examples at the moment, except for one that I'm not allowing myself to put on here for good reasons. But I'm pretty sure there are other things that I'm just not thinking of.

I think where I go wrong is my expectations, I think. I expect my feelings about something to last forever, or for whatever it is, lets say the myspace high, to last. I think its always going to be as fun as when I started. So as the excitement goes away, so does my interest. Why must I need excitement for everything to be enjoyable?

Oh, and here's another example I just thought of: This Blog. I intended to keep up with it everyday, and if not everyday, most days. You can see when I last posted to verify that I have not done what I had intended to.

I think another part of it is my laziness. Laziness to think and type for this. Laziness to care about whatever it is.

I need to find the source of this problem so I can fix it. I know it will make my life better, and I'll enjoy the decisions I make for a longer period of time.

Now will I actually take the time to think about what it is? Will I begin this thought process with great determination and then forget about it? Probably, but lets hope not.

Just a thought...

...what's so wrong with staring at yourself in the mirror? We only get to see ourselves a few times a day. People that we come in contact with daily get to see us all the time. It's not fair that other people get to look at you but you don't get to enjoy who you are.

I just wanted to make a not of something.

Last night at our basketball game I was reunited with one of my five roommates from freshman year. He introduced me to his wife which meant one thing.

I am the only one out of the six of us who is NOT MARRIED.

And you know what, that's ok with me. Not that I don't want to get married, but, ya know, oh well.

We'll see when rommmate number six gets hitched. I'll let yall know when I do.

myspace

Well, myspace.com has taken over my life and any self control that I once had. If you haven't heard of it yet, it's a place where you put up your picture, write up a profile and just add a bunch of random or known friends. You can even blog on it, but the coolest part for me is putting down what schools you went to and then finding old classmates, ones that you weren't even good friends with. I for one really enjoy knowing where and how people are doing. I've only met two people from high school, but who knows, this thing seems to be catching on pretty quick around here, maybe it will with my hs alumni. But anyway, yeah, this place has taken control of me. I check to see if anyone has tried to add me to their list or if I have new messages, and I do this all the time. Before hw, during hw, after hw, when I wake up, right before I go to sleep. Ah! And the thing is, I know I'm not the only one. It shows when your 'friends' are online, and you see those people on all the time too. Friends here at school even admit that it's addicting. I'm scared thought that I'm more addicted that anyone else. Some people could care less about this whole deal or know that they don't have time for it. Well, I really don't have much time for it either, but I do it anyway. I just like to do stupid stuff like this, ya know, like get friends who I don't even know, and then don't even talk to them anyway. It really is ridiculous.

So, anyway...that's myspace.com for ya. So go to my link that I put on here. Add me as a friend, and if you don't have an account, get one and then add me ;)